Once the drugs are gone

Picture taken: 2007

​“Only once the drugs are done... I feel like dying, I feel like dying...”

That feeling when all the drugs are gone...
Misery.
Emptiness.
Despair.

The high comes and goes so fast, the comedown hits so hard. Spending every waking moment pursuing those numbing feelings of euphoria. Constantly chasing that first high... that first hit, that first pill, that first line.

The drugs are gone, time to sleep; the brain is racing, it won’t shut off. Eyes are closed, teeth are still grinding. If there’s a way to feel dead while still alive... this is it. There’s a price to pay for this heavenly high, these temporary feelings of euphoria... this misery is the payment. The despair is the currency.

The highs I get in my life today are real, with no comedown, that will last a lifetime. Fitness, nutrition and daily self-growth tools (affirmations, meditation, etc.)
give me the tools to be the best version of myself. Being a dad and husband fills me with the most pure and genuine love I’ve ever felt. Pursuing love, happiness and success for my family allows me to feel like I have a true purpose in life. And as long as I stay the course, I won’t ever have to trade this amazing life for a drink, pill or powder ever again!