Down the rabbit hole

Picture taken: 2008

Pictured here is an older version of myself (2008?); an older version of myself that was suffering immensely, feeling an enormous amount of pain with a massive void inside of him. That void only being filled with daily drinks, nights of drug induced euphoria and the illusion of love.

So far down the addiction rabbit hole, and still in the depths of an insane and toxic relationship. Three rehabs in at this point, but still a few years off from getting sober again. Multiple arrests, homeless stints, totaled cars and spiritually broken moments away from getting back into recovery.

I’m just so damn grateful to have made it out of that lifestyle in one piece. I get to be present and truly experience every moment now. I get to feel all the terrifying, confusing and amazing emotions that this world has to offer. And I get to have more love and joy in my life than I ever thought possible. So saying I feel damn lucky would be a hell of an understatement.