The first 24hrs

“I need to do this, I have no other choice... I don’t want to die.”

Shaky, sick & terrified. Sweats and insomnia. Overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, fear and shame.

Taking decisions hour by hour, minute by minute. The obsession of the mind takes over every bit of our being. The non-stop mental battle begins to keep from picking up that first drink or drug again.

Mentally ready to run back to our comfort zone, to what we know best. Spiritually willing to do anything to not pick back up, to break free of the toxic and self-destructing pattern we are stuck in. Finally ready to listen and do whatever it takes to escape the insanity.

Praying to whatever we believe in, whoever will listen. Asking for help to no longer live this way, to rid us of this misery. Begging for a miracle, the miracle to not use anymore. The miracle we need more than anything else, in that moment, to save us from ourselves.

You won’t always feel the way you do right now, I promise. It may not seem like it, but the pain you are feeling is only temporary... it will subside.

Your addiction does not have to be a spiritual or physical death sentence. As long as you are still alive and breathing, there is still hope for you. And I promise you... you are worth it!