We got that bad love

“We got that bad love, but it taste like medicine.”

That pull, that passion, that I need you to breathe feeling. That grip on my heart, my life, my emotions, my everything. I worshiped you and despised you at the same time. Hit me, yell at me, tell me how much you hate me. Take a drink, do a line, let’s get high to fall in love again. Let’s fight so we can feel something, because I’d rather feel misery than nothing at all. This is our love, our beautiful chaos that no one will ever understand but us. I’m yours, you own me, you always will.

Let’s break up so we can make up. Get out of my life, delete my number and never talk to me again so I can blow up your phone and beg for you back. Lie to me, tell me you’re sorry, that it will never happen again. Land another fist so I can call you a psycho again, encourage you to swing harder. We say Bonnie and Clyde but the way we poison each other, this is more like Romeo and Juliet...

To those that can relate to these words... YOU’RE NOT ALONE

A lot has changed since these toxic times. Even with everything we put each other through, personally, I know I’m stronger now because of this relationship. So in my opinion, our chaotic love story does have a happy ending of sorts. I have forgiven her and she has forgiven me. The more time I spend trying to grow spiritually and emotionally, the more forgiveness and empathy have become key components in my inner peace and happiness. All wounds heal with time, and the scars left behind do nothing but show you are stronger than ever before.